so...........I had my first experience with a tremor!
I sitting at my desk in my room, next to my window, and I'm just chilling, and ALL of a sudden the burglar bars on the second floor (my room is on the second floor) starts to shake
so I'm like who outside my window??
and then I was like how de f*ck they get outside my window
then I say WAIT, why my bureau jumping?????


Lord Trinidad!

it is SUCH an experience

a cute little boy!

This is a rice drawing, the rice is dyed and then dropped on the page, not stuck down. pretty amazing




so tonite the hindu community at school put on a Divali celebration show
it was REALLY great
all the Saris and the rice designs the singing and so on
and then they explained the story of Mother Lakshmi, and Divali Sita and Ram and why the light the dias (the little candles) to illuminate the darkness (which is ignorance)

for most of the nite I was feeling VERY ignorant
of their religion and customs
but I think maybe I MAY know a little more after tonite
it was really great!
we saw a traditional hindu marriage and there was a Tasa Band
all of this was free mind you! THEN they gave us curry and some kinda green thing, Barfee and something else (sorry if I don't know all the names) for dinner
I love it!

















Mother Lakshmi

this is just a cute little girl

















Namaste!

so this Friday gone, I had EVERYTHING set up, was going to zen, getting in free, had transp there and home! (imperative in tnt) and what happens? the fricking water off, can't get ready!
it may have been a blessing in disguise cuz I think I needed the sleep but CHA!
anyway
I THOROUGHLY made up for it on Saturday nite
the whole nite cost me $50 tt, like $20bds, we lived it up in the vip room with some other bajan friends then we went to another fete at Pier 1, then we left there and went to Maracas Bay, did anyone hear about the Tidal wave that was there? luckily we missed it but I ainno what woulda happen if we were there doing doughnuts when the water was coming in

TRINIDAD AND TOBAGO! truly an experience!

why people have nothing better than to make up stories about you is beyond me
I never understand how I have barely enough time to read a book, and yet other people, grown ass people, have the time to craft entire life stories about other people

on another note

all I hearing is that Hugh wooding is PROFESSIONAL training
so why is it that they treating me more like a child here

seating plans and ish!
have to FORMALLY request permission to be absent from classes
and they can say no if you don't word your letter correctly

and again the water went off
this time the electricity didn't go off!
I've never had to wash dishes with bottled water before
was quite a "treat"

ah Trinidad
such a strange land
where people call you "family"
and you never have electricity
or water, or transport or any kind of amenity
but rather the fear you gine end up in the city
when they blowing up garbage for kicks
cuz dese men ain't nutting but tricks

So everyday I think I realise there's a little something I could be appreciative over
like
the water only went off ONCE today
and even so the water tank didn't COMPLETELY explode when I noticed that the pipe leading to the house was slightly disconnected
Dana made a good point, when her sister was in Cuba she had to shower from pep bottles
WE ARE NOT SO BAD OFF!

I watched the Sisterhood of the traveling pants
and I'm not afraid to admit I cried a couple times

maybe it was becuz, uncannily I could see parts of my personality in the "sisterhood" and that realisation kinda freaked me out!

I'm feeling a little odd about my exams....If this was UWI I'd have exams in less than two months, here, I have about 8 months,
its odd, I feel the need to put in some serious work, but on the other hand I know 6 months from now I'll have NO idea what "paragraphing" is

so what do I do?

it seems so POINTLESS to be studying the way I usually study from so early
maybe I better just do that and stay on top of my "game"
but then I feel so unmotivated to study when everyone else is just liming

I know I'm not one to do what everyone else is doing, but I'm the head limer girl when I know I can put in my 5 weeks of work and do a whole syllabus

truthfully if the people who are lecturering would stop CHATTING so much and just lecture we'd be done by november


sometimes I don't even understand myself
so how can I expect someone else to understand me?

so for the past couple days the water has been on and off
and we have a water tank but that has apparently gone dry
I mean I not really stressing about this, its just something to get used to, a different thing you have to adapt to
actually I'm looking forward to the changes that will inevitably occur in me
I don't want to live these two years here and rely on someone else to do something for me when I can do it myself
I figure every day should be a journey to where you want to be, but that's not quite right becuz that makes it seem as if life is a destination like you want to GET somewhere
rather than enjoy the ride
I want to enjoy the ride the whole way, even if it might get dark and scary sometimes
but I figure it can't last that way forever

so its been a while and alot has happened
but I think as I'm in Tnt
I'll use this as a way to keep a journal and a diary of what's going on
plus people can make sure I've not fallen into some hole in tnt (yes there are lots of them)
or someone didn't run off with me or try to assault me in some way

so Tnt is cool
honestly it is
but I swear when I come back I gine be able to run the task force!
special forces! anyting so, I mean you gotta be SOOOOO vigilant ALL the time, if its not a bombing, or an assault or some man trying to steal ya school bag, someone getting kidnap or their head chopped off or being used as a human shield!
steupse

why de bodderation man!
why people can't just get along?