getting to know someone is so invigorating
I think that is the best thing about life
whenever you meet someone (especially someone who is not a part of your "clique") its so refreshing to hear their viewpoints, the way they think about things everything

and when you meet someone, you have to spend some time really digesting their minds, taking it all in, as much as possible

its really great

I feel so frustrated
I feel miserable and snappy and REAL bitchy!
why?
I dunno why
just everyone is getting UNDER MY SKIN I could just scratch it off!
I hate feeling this way, even more so becuz I have no fucking clue why I'm so angry!

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sometimes I feel like I just want someone to take care of me
someone who would just know exactly how I feel and know how to make me feel better
I know I should be doing it myself its for me to make myself feel better
but sometimes I just wish there was someone who would do it for me

I wonder if becuz I hadn't been in contact with my father in so long, if this is why I feel like this

I mean he's just a person to me, someone I call once in a while to let him know if I've done something really good. But other than that, nothing.

I've really been missing a male figure in my life, my grandfather is old and weak now, doesn't even remember me
I think I'm looking to men for the wrong reasons
I need to sort out my self before I can do anything else

out of boredom
I signed up for one of those online singles forums
now....I'm still closed for stocktaking HOWEVER I'm having a little experiment, what is it that people look for, I mean what is the priority
obviously its looks, that's the first thing, then personality
but I mean how do you really know you'll click with that person?
conversation....but what if it takes REALLY long to get to know the person?
what if you jump off the train too quickly?
they could have been the love of your life if you'd just been patient.....OR you could be wasting time with this low-life when the REAL love of your life is just watching you and shaking his head cuz he can't believe you'd be so into such a moron

I tell you my theory about coloured people would be essential right about now

*ahem* for those who don't know my theory of coloured people is that you have a kinda range,
say blue to yellow
there are purple people, red people, orange people, all kinda colours in this range.
now a yellow person is lets say a bad person, they lie, they are arrogant etc
so when I look at a person I can see what colour they are and then know IMMEDIATELY what type if person they are.

now once you are a yellow person, you don't stay that way forever, that's why they are a range, so if you try to change the error of your ways, your colour will reflect that
so on any given day you could be a different colour, multicoloured if you wanted

I mean imagine how much easier it would be if you could see into a person so easily?

I am going to fail my exams
too much work!
far too much to cram in
oh LORD help me pick the right topics
study them well enough and throw them all up on the exam paper!

PLEASE NO SUPPLEMENTALS!!!!

so I met this 21 year old
really motivated! very interesting to talk to
generally a great guy to talk to

but some how I don't think he's the right kinda guy for me
I'm not feeling that vibe..........now the IRONY is suppose he's the right kind of guy for me
but my brain is overpowering my heart, and telling myself I don't like him?

Is it wrong for me to not want to get too involved just so I can keep my options open?

Is that bad? I mean men do that all the time so why can't I?

I really don't think he's the right guy for me but he's real sweet
wonderful to talk to
:)