I miss my grandpa

I really do

its like I forget that he's not here

last nite I was dreaming about him and I started crying in my dream
and when I woke up I was crying too

I've been having strange dreams about him since he died

the other night I was out with my friend and its like I just get a wave of sadness and I can't help but start to cry

I don't want to cry cuz it just seems silly its not going to accomplish anything

why do people put themselves in situations where they are responsible for other people and then try to put it on someone else?

why do people have children if they aren't prepared to deal with everything?

there's something about toe nail polish that I love
I love how my toe-sies look with a splash a colour

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for Valentine's day I'm hanging with my girl Daana
:)
we gine learn the finer art of rolling our tummies !

I got my self one v-day card
and it was one of those unromantic funny cards

which was probably the best thing I could have gotten
I rather get a cute unromantic card from someone so that I know that they thought of me
than to get one that is filled with all kinda mushy shit that is meaningless

people can talk and talk and say ANYTHING
for me its better to say nothing than to lie

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you!
I was reading my previous blogs
and last year my life was pretty exciting!!!

cha I boring

Harder to Breathe by Maroon 5 is a song that just speaks to me

"is there anyone out there cuz its getting harder and harder to breathe!"

I think I'm sick again
ick!

ok Beta Beti is a cute song
:)


I'm beginning to think no body reads my blog
*sigh* things are sad when no one reads your online diary
hehehe

I have a class right now
but I tell ya I REALLY not able to go to the pplz's class
cha

more and more I realise that my relationships have changed me
or at least I've become a little jaded!
I am VERY reluctant to tell someone that I like them
before I wouldn't have a problem with saying it but now
nah gotta pry that shit outta me with a crowbar!

the people at Cable and Wireless are just
I dunno

today is three weeks since my grandpa died
and they called about the phone bill
I mean we had REAL pplz to call from overseas

anyway so my mum answers the phone and they are like may I speak to Harold Forde
my mum: Dr. Forde died last month
C&W: oh, I'm sorry, well who's taking care of the bill now that he's Dead

I mean
GEEZ ON!!!
no kinda compassion at all!