so here I am again
exams round the corner
this year I really am up shit creek tho
I mean last year given my emotional status I was just in the library CONSTANTLY
this year
I don't think I remember where to find the law journals!

God what have I done to myself!
anyway all is not lost its good to have friends!
pplz been giving me their old notes and collecting handouts for me
so its just for me to read them
READ THEM
that is the hard part
they soooooooo long and drawn out
I swear we doing the most boring topics this year

they so DRY
who cares if the court can grant a certiorari mandamus????
I certainly don't

so first he says he don't want anything serious
BRILLIANT cuz I am most definitely STILL closed for stocktaking
INDEFINITELY!

now he says that he wants to do more meaningful things together
nigga please
I know that trick

I ain't want no meaningful times together for you to think I getting caught up
ban that!

man men are confused
for once I know what I want and what I definitely DO NOT want
and when I let the man know that
I jealous, (big joke) I trying to make things serious (bigger joke)
I mean I think I gine have to walk around with a sign saying
NOT INTERESTED and I MEAN IT!

when someone has the ability to get under your skin and completely infuriate you
its one of two things
either this person is just very gifted at being an asshole
or for some assinine reason what this person thinks affects you

how DARE he make me feel this angry so easily and then have the nerve to say "I can't talk to you when you're like this, you're too moody and miserable, I have work to do"

wft
he makes me so angry I could hit him!

all men and I do mean this are barely worth the space they occupy
every last one of them in my experience has had some ulterior motive for anything they do

case in fucking point
he's going to tell me that I'm moody, and ask me if I'm rashole pms-ing
I mean there should be a friggin manual about this
if a man asks this even says pms beware of fireworks!
GOD!

I hate this feeling....I can't get angry and shout cuz if I do essentially what this asshole wants will be accomplished and that is to get to me!
so I have to simmer
deal with this shit
I can literally feel my blood pressure rising

so
every so often you meet a fella and you just have to give the man props

props/stripes cuz he's just say stuff that is SO true minus the bullshit and everything

so I reason to the man

I don't want to be a girl that men reason is a heart breaker

and he says: that heartbreaker crap is bullshit
they just label her that cuz they weren't man enough to hold her down

................

for ONCE a man speaks the truth!

maybe its me
maybe I'm adding to this confusion and not really understanding what I'm doing
so everytime I think its the men
its really me

anyway
I think I gine do what a very smart girl said to do
release my part B
or rather embrace it

I done feeling sorry for men
done second guessing myself cuz I think I may be hurting someone
I haven't lied to anyone
I have no reason to
so we gine just leave it at that

again I say
men are an enigma onto themselves
stress can't done