I went to the logos today
it was GREAT
I bought 4 books, literature anthologies
for $5 each
I LOVE it
that is how books should be
EDUCATION of any kind should be free

I love books
I must have bought about 12 books!

I just realised
that one of my literature books is missing
I HATE when I lend a book to someone and forget about it
now I don't know who I lent it to
its gone

I treasure my books
:(

and now its gone

I've been feeling very artistic of late
I went and bought some pastels and charcoal and some sketch pads
I also bought a notebook and a new pen so that I could do some writing
I feel that my muse is in gear
I mean like she's really kicking in all of a sudden
I mean not that I've done anything of any merit yet
BUT
I feel the need to


which is something I haven't felt in a while

its strange
in my mind's eye I keep having this image of a woman with her throat tied up
she can speak and breathe and operate as normal but what the cords are constricting
are the things she wants to say that no one will let her say

its an image I get alot of
and for the life of me I can't think of anything I want to say that I am not saying

but anyway
the other day I was reading a cosmo
and there was this woman who was suffering from writer's block and the advice that the person in the column said was
imagine you have a blue light illuminating from your throat
shining thru your neck and it comes out from your neck thru your nose and eyes and finger tips

and somehow that image is helping me

***
I'm actually looking forward to school
I really think last semester I was burnt out like dry toast
!
and this summer has been exactly what the doctor ordered
I would have liked to have travelled a teensy bit more (I did NO travelling)
but hey money doesn't grow on trees so what can I say

I realise more and more that life is incredibly short, or long depending how you look at it
but you should never take for granted the things you have in front of you
in plain sight

and if ever there is something that you think you might want, or need
that you should go after it immediately

and while quarrelling is important
it really isn't necessary
and you shouldn't waste time on shit like that!

If We Must Die by Claude McKay

If we must die, let it not be like hogs
Hunted and penned in an inglorious spot,
While round us bark the mad and hungry dogs,
Making their mock at our accursed lot.
If we must die, O let us nobly die,
So that our precious blood may not be shed
In vain; then even the monsters we defy
Shall be constrained to honor us though dead!
O kinsmen! we must meet the common foe!
Though far outnumbered let us show us brave,
And for their thousand blows deal one deathblow!
What though before us lies the open grave?
Like men we'll face the murderous, cowardly pack,
Pressed to the wall, dying, but fighting back!

Trick me : Kelis

Wooo
This is It Yeah
Wooo
Said I've paid my dues for all that i've done
And I showed you that I love you more than once
Theres nothing left there to decide
Said you might trick me once
I won't let you trick me twice
Freedom to us has alwayz been a trick
Freedom to u has alwayz been who ever landed on your dick
Seen it in you one too many times
Said you might trick me once
I won't let you trick me twice no
Might trick me once
I won't let you trick me twice
Might trick me once
I won't let you trick me twice no
Might trick me once
I won't let you trick me twice
No I won't let you trick me twice
Those days are old and overdone
And it's only cause i'm not with you that you make me number one
Though I may love you
It hurts me deep inside Oh
Now you no longer have to hide
I used to be down with the late night hit
Started gettin' heavy when I really wasn't ready
Used my past to get in my mind
So I fell for your lies like all the time
I thought you were the shit to be playin around
Call the police theres a mad girl in town
Could'nt get even here without a sound
It's not how I wanna get down Yeah (You)
Might trick me once
I won't let you trick me twice
Might trick me once
I won't let you trick me twice no
Might trick me once
I won't let you trick me twice
No I won't let you trick me twice
No I won't let you trick me twice
And I've paid my dues all that i've done
And I showed you that I love you more than once
Theres nothing left there to decide
Ooh Trick me I won't let you trick me twice
You might trick me once
I won't let me trick you twice
You might trick me once
No I won't let me trick you twice no
You might trick me once
No I won't let me trick you twice
Woooo
Peace
Woooo
Woooo
Woooo