what is this obsession men have with the quiet girl outside, freak inside?
I mean
they want a girl who outside is quiet and reserved
but then they want this total reverse when its just the two of them
*******
I HATE being jealous
and I HATE being teased about it
even more
and I HATE when there's nothing to be jealous about but its like the irrational side of me coming out
****
of late I've been feeling like I've been coerced into doing something I don't what to do
and all of that with out my knowledge or permission
its been this subtle thing
well I shouldn't say without my permission
cuz no one can make you do anything you don't want to do
Thursday, July 15, 2004
Wednesday, July 14, 2004
Monday, July 12, 2004
its so funny how life just makes sure you can't get ahead of yourself
here I was starting to feel comfortable
and its like "silly rabbit that's not for you!"
how dare he say I'm overreacting
what does he even know about anything
I swear men sometimes can be so dense its not funny
****
I remember seeing my grandpa
sitting on the verandah doing his crossword puzzles
and something came up to prompt him to say "Jeal-Ous-CEE!!!!"
it was with this kinda sing songy voice
at the time I can't really say I remember what it was he was talking about
I just remember vehemenantly protesting that I could ever be jealous
but what's so wrong with being jealous?
I don't mean over the top jealous like rip off someone's head jealous
but slight twinges of jealously can't be that bad
once you can control it
*********
I watched Frida last nite
now I have to say that was a movie I found extremely interesting
I don't know if it was the fact that it was so REAL as in the characters and how they reacted to things
or the fact that her paintings were just so unlike anything I've ever seen
it was interesting the kind of relationship Diego had with Frida
he was cheat on her
she would get angry but then accept it
"it was just a fuck..meant nothing like a handshake"
everything was different when he fucked her sister
she went crazy
and again he said it meant nothing
they stayed married
for the whole of the movie
here I was starting to feel comfortable
and its like "silly rabbit that's not for you!"
how dare he say I'm overreacting
what does he even know about anything
I swear men sometimes can be so dense its not funny
****
I remember seeing my grandpa
sitting on the verandah doing his crossword puzzles
and something came up to prompt him to say "Jeal-Ous-CEE!!!!"
it was with this kinda sing songy voice
at the time I can't really say I remember what it was he was talking about
I just remember vehemenantly protesting that I could ever be jealous
but what's so wrong with being jealous?
I don't mean over the top jealous like rip off someone's head jealous
but slight twinges of jealously can't be that bad
once you can control it
*********
I watched Frida last nite
now I have to say that was a movie I found extremely interesting
I don't know if it was the fact that it was so REAL as in the characters and how they reacted to things
or the fact that her paintings were just so unlike anything I've ever seen
it was interesting the kind of relationship Diego had with Frida
he was cheat on her
she would get angry but then accept it
"it was just a fuck..meant nothing like a handshake"
everything was different when he fucked her sister
she went crazy
and again he said it meant nothing
they stayed married
for the whole of the movie