oddly enough
the idea of coupledom is not so offensive as it was before

I guess it all depends on the circumstance

I still am not prepared to be in a relationship like that
but I must admit that the thought of it doesn't make my skin crawl as it did before

its actually kinda nice

don't get me wrong I always liked the idea of being a half of a couple
its just my perspective has changed

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I SAT down in the middle of broadstreet yesterday

haha

there was a fashion show in the middle of broadstreet
I love runway!

a friend of mine got signed to IMG
how cool is that

as from tomorrow I am HOUSESITTING!!

I love housesitting! absolutely LOVE it
they have a pool and such a cool house

*sigh* I can't wait til I get my own place !

guy asks
"I should be in Barbados next week so will I see you"


I don't know
those kinda questions annoy me
will I see you
that's like asking is it going to rain three weeks from now
the only possible answer is I don't know
its a cop out way to ask something
if you want to see me say
Lani
I'm coming xyz day can I take you out to lunch on that day
not
will I see you
steupse

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I babysat these two kids today
took them to the wildlife reserve and chefette or rather 'da fete' according to Dan-dan

children are so cool they see things so differently than adults
I wonder when I stopped seeing things like how a child does

I went on a cruise the other day
apart from the men who were bartending
I was the only "black" person on the boat

now I have to admit it was a little odd
(quite easily I could have been older than everyone there too)

it was kind of empowering to know that I had the most rhythm on that vessel :D

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so my grandmother suggested
converting the guest room we have into my room
and giving my brother my nicely painted blue room

I know I'm being silly becuz the guest room would give me a little more independence it being slightly apart from the house and all

but I finally got my room how I like it
and to give it up and all

to my 7 year old brother just seems slightly unfair

plus the fact that my furniture won't really fit upstairs
AND the back of the house is kinda I dunno I know I'm being silly but its scary out there
and dark!

but I guess we could make it more secure
but then my brother would have my room!!!!! MY ROOM!
my sanctuary!!!!!

*sigh*
what to do what to do!

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I went to my old ballet school's prizegiving
just to help out
its good to do random acts of helpfulness every once and a while

:D
I LOVE dancing
I love it

I miss it so much
I think I'm going to go to a dance workshop this evening :D

it is so cool to see a person who looks kinda plain
but when they get on a stage and PERFORM! I mean REALLY perform dance their hearts out
its just wonderful!

I think I'd like to donate a prize for my dance studios prizegiving

I'd call it the personality prize
for the dancer that exudes the most personality whenever they dance