right so alcohol is the devil!
easily!

I am SICK and tired of people trying to get me to model for them for free
what the hell!
they get income from my pictures if they are used for the ads why can't they understand that that's only fair

hear this this photographer woman
now aside for the fact that she's a teensy bit psycho
ANYTIME she wants to take pictures of me she wants me to do it for free
now I have BIG problems with that
I'm taking my time and energy to give her pictures (and despite what people think, taking good pictures is hard)
and then she wants me to do my OWN makeup
now I am NOT a makeup artist, and further, it is VERY important that the makeup looks good in a picture especially for an ad since it can make or break it
and this is a woman who is white, and REASONS that HER foundation, could work for me since SHE and I are about the same colour

*ahem* I thought photographers should have a good eye


anyway so I was supposed to do a shoot with her today, for this jewellry lady,
who despite the fact that she sells one piece for $400 US has no money and asked if she could pay me in kind, I don't mind that too much, but I would really prefer to have money.

so long story short couldn't make the shoot this morning cuz I was kinda sick (more details later) and had to rescheduled

de woman calls me and I apologise
cool everyting works out
she calls me AGAIN
to ask if I can do the shoot tomorrow
so Tomorrow I have a job (as in actual payment for work)
de woman reason I should cancel the paying job
since I gine get more out of the shoot with her

1. she pun crack??


she's always want to know what other work I'm doing too
like if I had another shoot, she wanna know who and what it for and all kinda shite

it seems as tho she thinks she's DOING me a fav by doing these shots for me and the LEAST I could do is take no payment
steupse
men is take pictures of you and reason they gine pay ya $150 and other shite money NOT even the same day mind you
rashole WEEKS after you did the shoot

I mean just the other day I had a shoot with a REAL photographer and the pics look damn good too


steupse that woman reason that she can't do a shoot too early
(for her 9 am is early mind you)
and when I suggested we do this shoot on Saturday morning
she reason that
THEY go out Friday nite and can't wake up til 2 on a saturday
ha

my woman I had a shoot and had to GET there to start makeup at 2 in the am
steupse

this woman is uncommitted and a travesty to the art of Photography

is there something so wrong in expecting to be treated like a lady?

I mean I always say "people will treat you how you allow yourself to be treated" I think this should be my mantra
and I really can't be upset if I allow someone to treat me in a way I don't like
but
why can't someone see that they way they are trying to treat me
is not how they would want to be treated

why is it men have a way of minimising EVERYTHING down to sex?????
I swear if they could they would be in a constant state of copulation
some men just everything is sex
its QUITE gross
very unappealing
and an INSTANT turn off

kudos to the guys who take me out for lunch or dinner, with NO expectations of anything
just to feed me

its like they need to be re-trained in the art of treating women

whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

I really hate unmannerly bitchy girls
why the fuck does she have to get on like that?
what did I ever do to her?
I mean I'm nice to her decent
and she gets on like a cunt

at least I don't have to see her for much longer and I can limit my interaction with her to just passing but CAW blen why does she have to be so rude???

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*I know it may sound really superficial
but when a guy who "claims" to be interested
can't even remember my name
or where he met me
INSTANT deduction of points
you my man are operating with negative points at this point

imagine this
a guy met me in a club months ago
seemingly forgot what I look like and then sees me again
so I say hiya I thought you forgot me
welllllll he did
man reason my name is Laura..no wait Lucy
THEN reason he met me in the wrong club
after a while was trying to work up the nerve to ask for my number
HELL NO come again when you remember my name

I think for now.....as lonely as I am......I'm better off being single
men are far too much stress and I don't understand them enough
so I'll take my time getting to know the little idiosyncracies first
then apply them to my Rodrigo Santoro look-alike bfriend (aka my real man)

I was feeling bored so I made myself an apple pie

today was a fun day
started off with dancing for gold cup
then dinner with a whole bunch of women
then smirnoff promos at Boatyard..nuff dancing and Calypso!!
and that's it
hehe

there's something great about being able to lime with a bunch of people and just talk shite
I mean its great
I hate to think of the day when I won't be able to do that

oh let me always have time for shite talk

I fear that burn may no longer be talking to me
*sigh* ah feel I pissed him off something stupid
and that really wasn't my intention
I guess I'll let him simmer for a bit

so there's another guy
let's call him Scottie
now Scottie and I are friends
good friends
liming partners
always wanting me to hook him up with my friends
no prob I'll be happy to oblige
but every so often Scottie is come with some kinda idle chat like he wanna be more than friends

hmph
now I get reeled into that little game men play
how they want you till you want them back
so I ain't even looking in his direction wid dem pink heart shaped glasses
I like this friendship ting too much for now

but it is amusing how these little subtle hints come down all the time
like how I'm in a class of my own
and too cute I gotta hook him up with my niceness
hmmph

I am not impressed
just another way men do these little tricks on ya
and then when ya want them
shi-te
NO where to be found

I smarter than that
I tell ya
ah CLOSED for STOCK taking!